posted by Mel
First, I need to say that we really appreciate the thoughts and prayers of everyone who has commented, e-mailed, or called. We have a wonderful support network, which we know we will need very much in the months to come. Thank you all.
Today was rough, but we are muddling through it. We have to. Vanessa and I began the day at 4:15 (I couldn’t sleep– thoughts racing, heart racing– and then she couldn’t sleep) by driving all over Greenwood to find that there are NO all night restaurants there. We pulled into Cracker Barrel in Southport at 5:30 and talked and cried in the parking lot until they opened at 6. After breakfast we went back and began clearing out Peggy’s bedroom. It was early to do this, but it felt good to get started because it’s easy to be overwhelmed by the volume of work there is to be done. Found many things that broke our hearts– mine is breaking mostly because Vanessa’s is, and it’s hard to see her hurting so much. Made a trip to Goodwill to drop off the first load.
Left Eric at his mom’s, and Ness and I went home. She turned around immediately and went to her grandmother’s (paternal), while I got violent with the junk mail it seems like we’re always drowning in and cleared some things out. Gotta make room for the boy that’s coming to live with us now, and that means getting the house in order. Eric met us at our house around 11:30, and we began our all afternoon marathon– to the florist (not too terrible), the funeral home (infuriating), and the cemetary (excrutiating). It’s nearly 8 PM now, and we just got home. Eric went back to his mom’s. One thing at a time. He’s not ready to let that place go just yet, and I don’t blame him, but I worry about him being alone with his thoughts right now. I worry about him worrying.
If you made it this far, you really deserve some funeral info, but I’ll post it separately for those who didn’t have your stamina. Someday maybe one of us will post about the experience of making these arrangements, which was more painful than it had to be. Death is such a racket.