My monologue is usually helpful, but sometimes it consumes me. When too many voices start speaking, everything breaks down into chaos. Some of those voices are finding an outlet through dialogue, which is good.
At this moment, I’m trying to determine if there’s an immediate threat in my environment. I’d like to take a break from the monologue. It’s very tiresome. I’m not sure if it’s safe. In light of the past few days, I feel weak and vulnerable which makes me retreat into the safety of my monologue. I’m the only one there. Nobody else gets in.